WE talked. It was good. I expresssed myself, that what has been passing through my heads for these four weeks now.
You said sorry. You told me you were trying to save yourself from more pain later. I understand but I am still mad at you, we lost so much time. o much precious time and now it will never be taken back.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Hello Susie!
I love you! I love who you are I love that you are a changing person, always growing and experiencing - I love that you worte thigns down tha I can read now and remmber and be stregthend - thank you for believing and being such an example to me! you are the best! and you can do anything you put your mind to!
lve love
susie
I love you! I love who you are I love that you are a changing person, always growing and experiencing - I love that you worte thigns down tha I can read now and remmber and be stregthend - thank you for believing and being such an example to me! you are the best! and you can do anything you put your mind to!
lve love
susie
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Finally, relief
I feel so much better now. I feel free, I feel loved, I feel confident. I feel that I can control my life and my circumstances. I can make things happen - find transportation to the city center even with a few drawbacks. Make it back in the morning to open presents. Pass a good afternoon with the great family. Be strong enough not to answer the phone or return the call. But make other plans with other friends, and carry it out! We watched my movie in a starbucks with my computer! Toma! and I had a great time being myself with my friends. I greeted the family visiting the house. I felt a little more love. Freedom comes with love. I feel more in control - more power - self confidence. = )
Thanks for good friends too. I went out with Ani on Monday night, we meet up at 1 and were out in this bar until 4 with really cool music. We danced like crazy - it was so fun to just let loose and dance! Without caring and having any worries. Especially on a monday night of a holiday. Yea!
Then I came home and had a great day hanging out with other ppl that I love. ! I love life! Tomorrow I will be proactive and I will get a lot of things done! Over all STUDY philosophy! hehe
aw, only one week left!How Terrible!!
Thanks for good friends too. I went out with Ani on Monday night, we meet up at 1 and were out in this bar until 4 with really cool music. We danced like crazy - it was so fun to just let loose and dance! Without caring and having any worries. Especially on a monday night of a holiday. Yea!
Then I came home and had a great day hanging out with other ppl that I love. ! I love life! Tomorrow I will be proactive and I will get a lot of things done! Over all STUDY philosophy! hehe
aw, only one week left!How Terrible!!
Thursday, January 01, 2009
The BYU shortcut I have onthe top of the web bar. Its unused, and seems more and more unrecognizable.
BYU,
That seems like such a distant life. I feel disconnected with the symbol. Like I would be trespassing to sign on into the student account. How funny I have just stopped going there. I Left. It still exists. People kept going there. But I left.
Has it been worth it? What I have seen in the meantime? Where I have been? The People, the lifestyles. Its all been worth it. and one of the best decisions I could have made. To get out. To leave, not knowing what there was to find but finding anyway without holding back. Ok, there are somethings, times that I have definitely held back. But that included, I have come a pretty far way.
That seems like such a distant life. I feel disconnected with the symbol. Like I would be trespassing to sign on into the student account. How funny I have just stopped going there. I Left. It still exists. People kept going there. But I left.
Has it been worth it? What I have seen in the meantime? Where I have been? The People, the lifestyles. Its all been worth it. and one of the best decisions I could have made. To get out. To leave, not knowing what there was to find but finding anyway without holding back. Ok, there are somethings, times that I have definitely held back. But that included, I have come a pretty far way.
New Years Eve Dance
Yay Happy New Year!!
Al final, I had a great New Years Experience.
I went out all night. I was among friends, I did crazy things such as compete in a dancing contest (third place!)and an eating contest which consisted of the most random ansumble of food ever - half a bar of pan, whipped topping and two glasses of Peach Juice. I was not that good and I feel the effects of it now, but it was worth it as I was the only girl to compete and everyone was rooting for me! ha! I danced all night long. I dressed up Super GUAPA. In arriving we had to take several buses so we even got the RECORRER of the whole city at night of the fiesta. I saw A FEW fireworks (like five, above the neighbors houses, our street was dumb and didn't do any). I participated in traditional and culture events such as the eating of the 12 grapes with every chime of the Puerta del Sol Bell. I wore my classic New Year's Eve Dress, which I realized tonight I have worn every NYS Eve since I bought it my Junior year. I still haven't gotten my New Years Kiss but those are overrated anyway. I didn't eat churros y chocolate either which is very typical to eat in the morning, o well still full from pan and juice.
I basically just had a good time with my firends. I felt very comfortable there surrounded with a lot of pple who know me and like me. It was fun, plus we got to travel back to Alcalá in our Torrejon - Alcalá pack. Its the little things.
well thats it. Happy Año Nuevo!
Al final, I had a great New Years Experience.
I went out all night. I was among friends, I did crazy things such as compete in a dancing contest (third place!)and an eating contest which consisted of the most random ansumble of food ever - half a bar of pan, whipped topping and two glasses of Peach Juice. I was not that good and I feel the effects of it now, but it was worth it as I was the only girl to compete and everyone was rooting for me! ha! I danced all night long. I dressed up Super GUAPA. In arriving we had to take several buses so we even got the RECORRER of the whole city at night of the fiesta. I saw A FEW fireworks (like five, above the neighbors houses, our street was dumb and didn't do any). I participated in traditional and culture events such as the eating of the 12 grapes with every chime of the Puerta del Sol Bell. I wore my classic New Year's Eve Dress, which I realized tonight I have worn every NYS Eve since I bought it my Junior year. I still haven't gotten my New Years Kiss but those are overrated anyway. I didn't eat churros y chocolate either which is very typical to eat in the morning, o well still full from pan and juice.
I basically just had a good time with my firends. I felt very comfortable there surrounded with a lot of pple who know me and like me. It was fun, plus we got to travel back to Alcalá in our Torrejon - Alcalá pack. Its the little things.
well thats it. Happy Año Nuevo!
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