My Savior's Love, a comfort of a prayer

I woke up today with the strongest feeling of love from my Savior. I can't even explain where it came from, but it wrapped around me and held me close. I could feel his personal love for me and his acknowledgment of my current life situations right now. It just seemed he knew everything, and that he has been with me, knowing everything, watching everything, all along. I don't know who is praying for me, maybe it is my mother- but thankyou, today I know prayers were answered.

My fingers are tired from keyboard typing. I have been on the computer for the last few hours, searching for English Teacher positions in Alcala/Madrid area. I was surprised at the amount of idioma schools in Alcala. I went through the whole list, pulling of names, numbers, and for those that had them, email addresses. I sent out resumes and resumes. I assume that out of all the places that I contacted, at least one has to be in need for some extra help.
I don't know what my plan is for this summer. I can feel a lot of things changing, at least for my students wise. I know a few of them that want to continue, but already a few our drifting off, and once vacations come, its all down hill from there. I hope to use the time I have as best/wisely as I can.
I feel terrible today, because I received an email from Maribel threatening to discontinue our intercambio if I shape up and contact her once in awhile. I think she is frustrated with me, because I have been so busy and I never give our commitment the time of day. I feel terrible, and I really want to show her that i am willing to put effort into this. I like her a lot, and don't want to lose her as a friend.
I met with Rodrigo today too. I feel like he's hiding something from me, I just don't know what it is yet. Maybe its this whole girlfriend thing, does she exist? And I don't understand why he is such a nice guy and why he is helping me out so much, everyday he has done some other great thing for me, finding websites, job offers, school information. I am continually blessed with finding the right people/
Ugg, except I am too scared and proud to give one other potentially great person a call - I really want to savor some of the relationship with carlos, why don't I just call and apologize for being a jerk.
That's why I didn't go out tonight, because I am too stupid and proud to make any friends. Shame on me. This is not how you survive in a foreign country.
Tomorrow Daniel and I are meeting for a picnic/class. I am kind of worried about this turning into a friend relationship instead of a teacher relationship and then him not wanting to pay me anymore. I am worried at sucking at my job as a conversation teacher -some I feel its really great help, and others like I am wasting their time and money - james and ana for example.
I need to be doing better about reading my scriptures/aka the bom, I need to search its words and the words of our modern prophets. Who am I if I do not read them?

Alisha W.

I am really lucky to have the friends that I have. For example, Alisha Walbrecht. I don't think I could ask for a more loyal friend. Thanks Alisha for always being there and willing to talk. I have always enjoyed being with you, and I feel blessed that I have you as one of my close friends.